Post Surgery Wake-Up

Friday was the dreaded d-day for my surgery. I was anxious the whole day and unable to eat anything the night before.

After my surgery I woke up and started throwing up. I felt like I had to go to the bathroom and so as soon as they tried to help me up it began. They gave me 3 rounds of nauseous medication but it wasn't until I got home and ate something that my stomach finally relaxed.

My stomach is so huge right now. Full of gas and bloated from the surgery. I have never felt more uncomfortable. On top of that my photographer posted some photos of my fiance and I from our engagement shoot on her website and I HATE them. I can't help but focus on my size and see all of the fat and see everything I want to disappear. I wish I could go get on a treadmill right now.

Maybe that was what I needed though. A prewedding wake-up call. There are 7 months until the wedding...plenty of time to still lose some weight and feel better about my body.

As soon as I can I will be on that treadmill. And this time, looking at those photographs, I can visualize where I don't want to be.