I'm Backkk...for now

I'm back...before another brief hiatus unfortunately. My surgery got moved up to December 5 so I'll have to take a few days (a week?) off then to recover and won't be able to work out. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers. :)

Everything has been going well. I've been working out with a personal trainer every week this month and it has really been changing my body and my workouts. He has taught me so many things that I would never have thought of doing on my own. I highly suggest seeing a personal trainer at least once to switch up your routine and to challenge your body. After this month I'll only be seeing him 1x a month and then if I want I can add on more sessions.

So some surprising news. About 2 years ago my cousin was visiting. She is 33 now with one child who is 4. She has been working out a TON (2x a day everyday) and lost a TON of weight. She was never big, but always average at 5'8". Well, when she came to visit us 2 years ago (I have seen her since, but the incident occurred around then) she had already lost about 20 pounds and was looking skinny, but I noticed she was eating a TON. She was never naturally thin--so I kept wondering what she was doing with the whole quesadilla she ate, 3 cookies and tons of snacks. Then it dawned on me--she's bullemic. I told my Mom that day that I thought she was bullemic and my Mom thought I was nuts. Well, apparently she went from bullemic to anorexic by the time she turned 32. She couldn't handle getting older and wanted to get really skinny. She has even refused to have more children (because she doesn't want to gain weight). She was put in the hospital for bronchitis, or so we thought, a few weeks ago. Turns out it was because her purging had actually been burning her esophagus. Ewww...

It makes me so sad to see someone do this to themselves. As unhappy as I am with my body I know I can fix it by working out more/eating less bad food and taking care of my body. It makes me sad to see someone who is so beautiful having so many body image issues. The odd thing is...she always acts like she has her whole life together and like she is (pardon the french) "the shit." It really surprised me.

Anyways, that is the new family stuff. In happier news, Sam officially proposed on 11/14/08! :) We haven't told his famil yet...he is going later this week to tell them. He has MAJOR issues with them, which I won't get into on here, but it's pretty ricidulous. I'm so excitied to marry him and to spend the rest of our lives together. :)

I hope everyone is having a great week. Hopefully we'll all drop 1 pound this week.

xoxo